First, I would just like to say...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!
I hope the day is all you want it to be and more!
I love you!
I've been unusually quiet for a good long while and try as I might, I just can't seem to find the gumption to do anything about that. Life feels anything but happy these days and my creativity level has dropped well below zero so what's the point, right? But, all that aside, the world keeps turning and life carries on.
And this past month, well, it's certainly been an all around pisser. With the economy such as it is, my company is still struggling to keep the doors open, leaving me no choice but to ride it out and hope for the best. Drew is still unemployed and with no regular job and the side work extremely slim, paying the bills has certainly turned into an arduous task. I've heard it said that life is what we make it but when we struggle day in and day out and still fall short of we need to actually make a life, I just can't get behind that particular saying.
The most heartbreaking event to occur was the passing of my grandfather (papaw to those who loved him). He passed at home and we hope, peacefully in his sleep on November 12th 2008. Drew and my dad found him when they came home from picking Cameron up from school. He'd been about to take a nap before they left so they thought he was sleeping, it quickly became apparent that wasn't the case. Before he called me at work, Drew called the EMT's but it was too late, he was already gone. I don't know if I've ever said it here but there was no one that I loved or respected more than that man, my papaw and it hurts my heart to know he's not there to give me that sweet smile when I walk through the door everyday. He loved Christmas, he'd light up like a kid in a candy store when we brought the Christmas tree home and I very much missed having him help us decorate it this year. God, I miss him.
And this past month, well, it's certainly been an all around pisser. With the economy such as it is, my company is still struggling to keep the doors open, leaving me no choice but to ride it out and hope for the best. Drew is still unemployed and with no regular job and the side work extremely slim, paying the bills has certainly turned into an arduous task. I've heard it said that life is what we make it but when we struggle day in and day out and still fall short of we need to actually make a life, I just can't get behind that particular saying.
The most heartbreaking event to occur was the passing of my grandfather (papaw to those who loved him). He passed at home and we hope, peacefully in his sleep on November 12th 2008. Drew and my dad found him when they came home from picking Cameron up from school. He'd been about to take a nap before they left so they thought he was sleeping, it quickly became apparent that wasn't the case. Before he called me at work, Drew called the EMT's but it was too late, he was already gone. I don't know if I've ever said it here but there was no one that I loved or respected more than that man, my papaw and it hurts my heart to know he's not there to give me that sweet smile when I walk through the door everyday. He loved Christmas, he'd light up like a kid in a candy store when we brought the Christmas tree home and I very much missed having him help us decorate it this year. God, I miss him.
Kenneth Martin
1924 to 2008
Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interest, but also for the interests of others.
1924 to 2008
Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interest, but also for the interests of others.
PHILIPPIANS 2:3.4
Rest in peace, papaw.
Rest in peace, papaw.
On a happier note, Thanksgiving was a wonderfully relaxing, fun-filled day spent with those I love (Drew, Cameron, mom, dad, Christie, Sarah, Jade) and my mom and I spent Black Friday getting our trees and putting up Christmas lights. Despite the lack of funds, Christmas remains my favorite time of the year. I love the lights and the sounds and the smells and the baking and the wrapping and the peppermint white chocolate mochas at Starbucks. Lovely. And it's been nice and nippy around here too! Very unsual but nice, very, very nice.
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