...A I M E E...

I can not clearly tell you how absolutely miserable I am right now. Can't, can't, can't. But I will tell you that at present, I can not breathe, my left ear is killing me (seriously), there is so much pressure in my sinuses I think my head is in danger of exploding, my eyes burn something awful, my chest hurts and I have the most hideous cramps.

And those cramps I speak of started somewhere around 3 o'clock this morning, you know, when I was already waging a war to try and get some sleep despite this pissy cold that's over taken me. I had to drag my ass out of bed and hunt down my heating pad, which was hiding entirely too good for my liking (dammit). Once I found the damn thing, I spent the next 2 hours curled up in the fetal position wishing someone would just go ahead and put me out of my misery (and as shameful as it is, I'll admit, I was crying like an overgrown toddler on top of it). My alarm clock went off at precisely 6 o'clock this morning, just about an hour after the heating pad finally lulled me back to sleep. And once up, I discovered that I'd managed to burn my belly with the heating pad, but you know what, I don't bloody care, if I feel even half as bad tonight as I did in the wee hours of the morning, I'll risk my skin again just to make the torturous things go away and leave me alone. I'm serious.

Oh well, it's back to staring aimlessly into space for me.